delivered from fear

Lord sometimes I'm afraid of what might happen in the future. I submit all my fears to you and thank you that you will take them away from me. I lift up to you my greatest fear and ask that you will give me peace in place of fear. When troubling things happen to me or around me, help me to remember that you are on my side and will fight for me. If you are there for me then no one can succeed against me.

Lord, I thank you that no matter what has happened to me in the past, no matter what is happening in my circumstances now, you promise to never leave me or forsake me. Thank you that because you love me, I don't ever have to live in fear. I pray you would take away anything in my life that give's me good reason to be afraid. Keep me safe and protected where I am, And take me to a place of safety in the future.

Prayers for Emotional wholeness by Stormie Omartian

surrender

Today I feel like my HP is really guiding me along to get stuff done. I've been surrendering to the Lord all the situations in my life. Yesterday I had a good conversation with my fiance. It went really well. He respected my boundaries and I was using the program. Not telling him what to do. I didn't discuss the letter I wrote with him. He was feeling guilty as it was about hurting me and I didn't want to make him feel worse. Today I went to counseling and we covered a lot of information. My counselor told me I need to put myself first and the next time I talk to A I need to discuss the letter to get closure and find out what happened that month a year ago if he even remembers what happened. But, it's something I need to do for myself. Then I got a call from my church and they will be helping us out with groceries we will be able to go to there food pantry once a week from now until Christmas. I got a call from a mental health place to go talk to someone about medication. For me I think that might be the right thing and I do believe for me HP is guiding me on this one since I surrendered the situation. Then I got a call from this army pen pal register I signed about for so in about two weeks I will be able to write a soldier in Iraq. I really want to support our troops no matter what I believe about this war. I printed up a budget page so I will start working on that. I studied my GED today. Yes HP is guiding me today in all sorts of ways. Thanks for letting me share.

Christina

Just for today

I read this earlier today and wanted to share it.

Just for today give you life anew to God! Tell him, Full speed ahead! Just for today pour out your love and care for your family. Be "too nice" to everyone you meet. Just for today take your physical strength seriously and exert yourself. Just for today use that brain power God has given you to grow more beautiful in character. Just for today reach out and encourage your best friend in their spiritual journey. Just for today take one small step toward your goal you're trying to achieve. And finally, just for today make the commitment to wake up everyday of your life and repeat this pattern.

Lord, just for today I commit every single area of my life to you- every thought, every word, every action. Let this be a day in which I grow more and more into your image. Amen

Taken from A woman after God's own heart by Elizabeth George

the good are made better by ill...

The good are better made by ill, as odors crushed sweeter still.

Roger

Today I was working in the sun all day and I am so exhausted now. But at least I got a tan. I met this girl that's new to town it's not like we exchanged numbers or e-mails but we chatted. I also talked with this one acquaintance of mine who has been in Ireland she just got back and was working with her mom at her store but we only spoke shortly. But at least she didn't ignore me. Yesterday this woman commented on my necklace which meant a lot to me because my fiancé gave it to me a while ago. I wear it all the time and along the way I've collected other charms and stuff for it.

Here are some things I'm going to try to do:

1. I will not dwell on the past and worry about the future
2. I will treat other people with respect and compassion
3. I will be good to myself
4. I will learn to love and accept myself
5. I will be good to the planet
6. I will try to live cheerfully
7. I will be open and tolerant to others beliefs and opinions.
8. I will remember that a life lives simply is beautiful
9. I will learn to rest in the arms of the lord, spirit.
10. I will express myself and be free

Stronger

The very difficulties of life, of which we are apt to complain, are converted into the means of that discipline, that self improvement, which is the great end of life. …progress is the child of struggle, and struggle is the child of difficulty.

James Walker

STRONGER (Faith Hill)

This is the window to my heart
I just want you to be for real
There ain't no freedom where we are
There ain't no wishes in these stars
Ain't no reason to believe

But don't worry baby
Don't you worry
Baby this is what we need
A little bruise and a little bleeding
Some space that we can breathe in
Some silence in between

So cry for me baby
and I'll cry for you
and we'll both break down
and we'll both break through
and find our way to face the truth
We both will be stronger
and we'll lie down in our loneliness
and wake up with our sad regrets
and even though we don't know it yet
We both will be stronger
We both will be stronger
I can't believe you're really gone, now
but I know it's for the best
And I know that we weren't right
but I still reach for you each night
and man, that hurts like hell

So cry for me baby
and I'll cry for you
and we'll both break down
and we'll both break through
and find our way to face the truth
We both will be stronger
and we'll lie down in our loneliness
and wake up with our sad regrets
and even though we don't know it yet
We both will be stronger
We both will be stronger

This is the window to my heart
I just want us to be for real
Baby i'm sorry for the way things are
Goodbye is always hard
But we both will be stronger

SWITCHFOOT - This Is Home lyrics

I've got my memories
They're always
Inside of me
But I can't go back
Back to how it was
I believe now
I've come too far
No I can't go back
Back to how it was
Created for a place
I've never known

Chorus:
This is home
Now I'm finally
Where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching
For a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home

Belief over misery
I've seen the enemy
And I won't go back

Back to how it was
And I got my heart
Set on
What happens next
I got my eyes wide
It's not over yet
We are miracles
And we're not alone

(Chorus)

And now after all
My searching
After all my questions
I'm gonna call it home
I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see
The sunset
I'm gonna call it home

(Chorus)

Now I know
Yeah, this is home

I've come too far
Now I won't go back
This is home

What looks like crazy

I got a letter from my love and he gave me his password to go on his MySpace. So I will try again. I hope his friends write him. He has been so lonely and feels like no one cares. It's been a year but at least I will be able to say I did everything that I could. I worked today and it was not the best of days to be honest. But I really don't want to get into that right now. A man with tattoos came in a spider web and praying hands. I think the spider web means he has been in prison or struggled with addictions or problems. And the praying hands could mean he is Christian or a memorial for someone as well. To him personally what these things mean I didn't ask he was just a water guy but he was a very nice person he asked me how I was and said I seemed quiet today. At least he noticed I was frazzled and not having a good day. I wish I would have asked about the tattoos but I think his boss was with him. Tattoos fascinate me because they are silent stores. They tell of peoples lives and loves there ups and downs where they've been and where they would like to go. There is something so fascinating about telling a silent story on your body for the world to see then just writing words for the world to read. I myself want a tattoo. My first will be a star. I want it on my wrist. I've decided this because I feel like I am shooting for the stars. I have big dreams and want something more. But my love is my shining star he has guided my way and always has some nugget of advice for me that makes me think he is right. Sometimes he knows what's best for me before I even do. Then this couple I think came in and the guy was lean and had blonde streaks in his hair and a pierced ear and asked if we had a garbage so he could throw his cup away and I said yes and took the cup from him and then he said it was a lovely store and his girlfriend had long black hair. I think there is something so exotic about long black hair. I like the red I dyed my hair but in some light it doesn't look red enough but other times it looks perfect. I will keep it this way for a while longer and then I will be on to something else and try to reinvent myself yet again. Then this guy came in and being the dope I am I accidently knocked stuff over and I think he thought I was nervous around him or something because he told me he was looking for something for his girlfriend but I was not nervous I just had low blood sugar and felt like I was about to pass out because I was starving and did not eat lunch yet and I was frazzled about events that happened earlier in the day with my aunt. Then some other people came in and called with bad attitudes. And it seems like negativity transfers negativity. I hate that because then it puts me in a bad mood until I can get away from it and find some solace. But I came home and I bought some shorts because I don't have any but I found a pair that I really like that make me look hot and I feel good about myself in them so that put a smile on my face. So that's my day. I'm glad it's over it was exhausting but except for a few bouts here and there it was not too bad of a day. Oh yes and I read a book today called what looks like Crazy from Charlotte Hughes. She is a good author the book is funny. About a therapist whose patients are always doing something to her? One tries to blow her up one almost runs her over another's boyfriend tries to beat her up and then she is divorced from a firefighter her ex boyfriend who she works with is always trying to get into her pants and her mother and aunt are crazy people that collect junk. It's kind of funny really. But I did enjoy it.

Fate

Today was day 1 of my macrobiotic rice fast. Not that it is a real fast just eating rice and eating as macrobiotic as possible. All these thoughts and feelings and emotions where whirling around me today. All these emotions and thoughts came pouring out of me today both good and bad. I cried I wanted to run away I didn't want to think anymore but I hung on and I'm glad I did. Instead I decided to embrace my feelings my emotions and my thoughts I decided to face them instead of running away as usual. I know it's the only way I'll conquer my life is by facing my life. It was happy and painful. A mix of emotions an array of feelings thoughts flowing But I made it through. I realized I miss my love so much. I already knew that but today I really felt it and I let myself feel it. I didn't try to contain it or cover it up. It came in many forms. But underneath it all was a longing. I just miss him. Under all the complex emotions it was simple. Then once I realized that all these thoughts came flowing back to me memories really just made me remember why I adore him and love him.

Serendipity

1.	An aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.

2.	Good fortune; luck: the serendipity of getting the first job she applied for.

Fate:

1.	Something that unavoidably befalls a person; fortune; lot: It is always his fate to be left behind.

2.	The universal principle or ultimate agency by which the order of things is presumably prescribed; the decreed cause of events; time: Fate decreed that they would never meet again.

3.	That which is inevitably predetermined; destiny: Death is our ineluctable fate.

4.	A prophetic declaration of what must be: The oracle pronounced their fate.

5.	Death, destruction, or ruin.

6.	The Fates, Classical Mythology. The three goddesses of destiny, known to the Greeks as the Moerae and to the Romans as the Parcae.

The first day I saw my love was the first day of the rest of my life. I knew I was going to marry him one day. I prayed to the lord that if we really where meant to be and he was the one then let me see him outside of school so I can have a reason to talk with him. I saw him at the oberweis and knew it was fate or destiny. I knew that we where meant to spend out lives together. I still know this is true. I remember the first time we spoke. It was a Monday we where standing outside of school it was November a dark and chilly day. I walked up to him and we started chatting. The rest is history as they say. I remember when he gave me a pin he said an angel for my angel. I guess in some ways I am his angel and I love he thinks of me like that. But he is my angel as well in many ways. I remember when he got down on one knee and asked me to be his wife. I was totally shocked we had discussed marriage and getting engaged here and there but I didn't think he would propose. He did and I said yes of course why wouldn't I marrying him was my dream after all. Then we shared a kiss. Then one day he asked me to close my eyes and I opened them to find this beautiful ring on my finger. This was concrete now it sealed the deal he wanted to spend his life with me and he still does. I feel so lucky to be his and for him to be mine. Always and forever

Others are affected by what I am say and do. And these others also have the sphere of influence. So what a single act of mine may spread in widening circles thorough a nation or humanity.

W.E. Channing

In all sorts of husks and shells, hard, withered, dead, god sees a goodness we are always missing.

Robert Coyller

7.	To predetermine, as by the decree of fate; destine (used in the passive): a person who was fated to be the savior of the country.